Complaining about the weather may seem a little crazy thing to do since people do not have control over it, but dang, it’s just so fucking hot here!
I’m not whining, really. I just wish I live someplace else where there’s snow.
This is my first entry for 2011. And it’s April. Last week of April. Pffft. Sorry bloggie, I really am a bad blog-parent.
I’ll get back to you…
They’re out of tune – they have attitude problems – they don’t play instruments anymore – they’re out of tune – they obviously do not know what they’re singing (wrong words/lyrics) – and, err, did i mention they’re out of tune? Yes, their tunes are shooting in different directions all throughout the song!
I honestly don’t wanna blog tonight because there’s really nothing to blog about. I just put up something in my other blog moments ago, and it would be redundant if I blather about the same stuff here. It’s just that, I feel, well, a little obligated to put up something here (or it’s just my bloggerly instinct, I guess). Actually, a friend asked me what my purpose is for keeping two blogs. I don’t want to explain that over as I already did that in my previous posts, so I simply told him this is where my rants go. He then started nagging for a blog update on this site. Dang, how nice of him to ask for an update when he doesn’t dang write comments!!! Does he fucking know how I feel??? It’s like I’m talking to myself, just like now, for chrisake!
It’s technically 4 days minus some hrs before Christmas and here I am feeling like a loser for not being able to attend a single Christmas party – thus, not being able to enjoy good food and drinks, not to mention not getting gifts. Pfft.
The only gift (I consider it a gift) that made me jump in joy this year was a package of art supplies which I got last October from a good friend in Seattle, WA. I don’t have enough cash to buy gifts for my family and friends this Christmas, and they’re perfectly aware of that, so I definitely won’t complain if I don’t get any this year. That’s the only fair thing, I guess.
Ok…that’s it for now. Byerts!
Sure, Christmas is around the corner. The cool air, especially at night, is a sign. A lot are actually complaining about it – that they’re having difficulty getting out of bed in the morning because of the cool weather. Well, that’s their problem not mine, as I wake up at almost noon everyday. Yep, breakfast and lunch in one. Saves me some dough.
I feel that nobody wants to talk to me anymore. Or, maybe it’s just me. Pffft. My emotional and psychological blahness are getting a bit shaky again. Gawd, wish I know a shrink who I can talk to at no charge. Right now, my self-worth and self-esteem are plumetting real low. I don’t feel myself worthy of anything. In my head I hear the fucking ”I’m a loser” repeating itself over and over again! This isn’t good, I know.
I shouldn’t be doing this, but it can’t be helped. When I get in a funk like this, it takes me so much time to get out of it.
Hope I get better after this.
I can’t help but lose a piece of self-confidence each day. There’s not much more to say now except that I am really feeling down.
Well, I’m NOT giving up. It’s really all I can do.
Rejection is part of life but unfortunately it never feels good.
It just dawned on me today, after reading a blog post about 13′th month pay – that I am broke, and Christmas is coming. So, while everyone is busy thinking about the best way to burn their hard-earned 13′th month pay, I am here – alone, feeling sorry for myself. Screw you all! Uggh.
Hahaha…
All will be well, soon. I know. I’m postive. I’m going to get a job before the month ends! I can feel it materializing!
Okay…now I feel better. teee heee! XD
I’m just sad. Pls stop tagging me different labels. Harsh words really dig deeper in heads, and I admit I need it sometimes. Comments and advices are well appreciated, but, errr, pls, stop defining my own life.
I’m trying to become better.
